When I became Momma to Hattie Marie everything changed. Our home used to be clean, bed made, floors vacuumed, dishes put up, grocery shopping done, and dinner made. I used to get dressed, dab a little makeup on, brush my teeth, and fix my hair before two in the afternoon. I used to have a quiet morning, sipping coffee, journaling, doing my bible study. I used to make Chase's lunch before he left for work and we would spend evenings just the two of us, watching Netflix, going out to dinner or coffee, going on a walk, and checking in with how each other is doing. I used to eat meals at normal times, and sleep 8 hours a night.
Now, to an outsider, it probably looks like I get nothing done. To be honest, sometimes after long days of endless nursing I find myself telling Chase I did nothing that day. But I constantly am reminded that what I am doing, being present with my sweet daughter who is changing overnight (literally) and taking in all the newness of the world around her, that is doing more than anything I've ever done before. Responding to each of her needs, feeding her, changing her, rocking her, laying on the floor during tummy time with her, soothing her when she is fussy (and let's be honest, sometimes I cry with her), staring back into her curious little eyes, chatting with her, building love and trust between us that will hopefully continue throughout her entire life, that's what I'm doing.
Being Hattie Marie's Mommy is far greater than a bed that is made and getting myself dressed (Confession: sometimes I put clothes on right before Chase gets home. HA!). The things I do as Momma may not be able to be checked off a list and visible to the eye, but it's what is most important right now. All too soon, my baby girl is not going to want to be with Mom 24/7. She won't want to cuddle anymore, she'll be able to feed herself, she'll be building love and trust with friends, and then one day experiencing the joy of having a baby and messy house herself. So for now, I'm leaving the to-do list unchecked and sitting in my sweats, feeding Hattie Marie and soaking up this sweet, dependent, a lot of times exhausting stage she is in with a big ol' cup of coffee in hand.
If you come over, don't mind the piles, and if you're hungry I may be feeding you a quesadilla while still in my pj's! :)
Lots of love,